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first off HAPPY BIRFDAY megan(: and happy BELATED BIRFDAY alina hahah since i haven't been on here in hella long. tomorrow i leave right before lunch to catch a plane to go to muh sisters graduation(: i can't wait. man these last few weeks have been packed with things for me to get done. like homework, alinas birthday megans birthday susans graduation the concert the rod graduation and dealing with my grandpa =/

speaking of which he's in surgery right now =/ he's getting a bipass done right now and he's had his chest open and his heart stopped for like 2 days now. hopefully they'll close it tonight so he can hurry up and recover. i DID start crying yesterday when my dad said that he has a chance that he might not make it out of surgery but i know he will.

faggot kids like johnny just piss me off. today i had a long chat with julian during 6th period. it was about that kid. he told me things about how he still likes me and we were just talking hella much about it. so then i texted him later to see if this was true..of course it was. UUGGHH! freakin 6 billion people in this world and it happens to me. and it gets worse. on myspace, hella blogs from him saying things like i wish it'd go back to the way it was when we were together. WTF first of all that'll never happen EVVERRR and second ARE YOU GOING THROUGH SOME TYPE OF PSYCHOLOGICAL CAHNGES IN YOUR LIFE? you're acting hellof bipolar, like that one night you randomly texted me and you were talkin' all this mess about how you hate me and how i shouldn't talk to you and to stay out of your sight and how i'm a BITCH and that we're done! i was SO FREAKIN HAPPY when you said that. i thought i finally got you out of my life! i finally got you to not like me and actually hate me, but NO you decide to frikin' appologize and say you should've controlled yourself -.- wtf you just make me so mad sometimes, or ALL THE TIME. don't go killin' yourself now i don't want to have to save your ass again.